Remember in middle school how kids would chant that? Yeah that’s what is going on lately with me.
I don’t know how much I can say or should say. Too many locals are following me and could see this post. I don’t wanna cause drama for people, at the same time I’m so over the high school drama others perpetuate around me. I already unchecked this from being announced on Twitter. Sometimes I think it was easier to blog under a pseudonym 🙂 I think I might have to start making a password for some posts. Yeah it’s another post about “that person,” you know, the one who has no issues slandering me to anyone within earshot. Why do I feel the need to protect them? I’d like to think it makes me a better person 🙂 Then again, anyone who reads my blog knows what this is about 🙂 Hey I also kept it off facebook, where even more people in the know would find out the drama! Maybe they should really . . . .
Let’s just say this person didn’t like that I was playing with their kids in a pool a few days back. This person basically told me I wan not welcomed, to leave and stood there until I did so, because you know a gay person near kids in swimsuits with no one else nearby is just a molestation waiting to happen. Okay, that last part wasn’t said, but I am not stupid and I know that was a big part of what was probably being thought by said person. At least that’s how I was made to feel, like some dirty child molesting pervert. That really hit a nerve with me. Needless to say, this person succeeded in making me feel like a walking pile of shit in front of their kids. BRAVO!
I was furious, but bit my tongue. I wasn’t starting a scene in front of the kids. I was at least somewhat above their tactics. I also knew this would lead to a fight if I said anything about it to anyone else. It’s a bad habit I have, but I will bury things inside me to avoid drama around me. I just made up my mind to avoid a certain local and to no longer have anything to do with it, including offering the free internet service I have been out of my own time and pocket. BTW, we are talking spending around $300 dollars of my own money last month to update/purchase new software! Look for a new wizardworks.net sometime in the future, I have to use it somehow!
Well John found out from the kids what happened, he’s pissed at what was said, he’s pissed I didn’t tell him, and he planned to start an issue about it in front of people to call said person out on his views. Yeah it’s nice he wants to defend my honor and all that, but it will do no good. Said person’s mind is made up, nothing will ever change it about me, John or any gay person. I fear that he’ll just turn around and cause major drama and shit for others in the family. That’s why I told him I’m not gunna suffer, your not gunna suffer, others are.
Whether John did it, I don’t know. I didn’t ask him tonight, I really didn’t want to know. I’ve already had one employee come over and talk to me. I simply said I had made my mind up and was sticking to my decision. I was later told by John that said person was getting ripped left and right from a lot of people. Again, I feel it will do no good. Said person will just target me more, thinking I blabbed and that I a fucking pansy faggot caused him grief, and will just spread more lies to people around him (oh is that inflammatory? MY BAD). This has been blogged about before 🙂
Frankly at this point it’s better for my sanity to just stay on my side of the street. I told John as much, cause otherwise I’d start a fight and hit said person, which would result in me being the bad guy and going to jail. John says then he’s won, and I’ve isolated myself from other people who care about me. John however grew up in a much more liberal and accepting surrounding. I’ve blogged about this one before. I was called a gay-wad and teased that I would get a sex when I was in 3rd grade (7 years old people!), simply because my friends were all girls. Clearly yes I was gay at that age, as most rational people realize one is born gay. Said person just brings back all those old feelings of nastiness and bullying in me. When I graduated high school, I gained the freedom to say “I don’t have to sit in this room with you, I don’t have to be in the same building with you, I can walk away and not be punished, buh-bye!”
Sadly though I am stuck in a house with no one but animals all day, but oh well. Has he won? I don’t know. Maybe yes and no. He may keep me away, but I have now forced them to pay for services I offerd for free. Services they won’t match without bucks because I could have been there everyday offering fresh internet updates! I was also prepared to offer a whole lot more, more they won’t get without paying even more for. Oh well, who has lost now? Probably both.
Don’t get me wrong, I am all for fighting for gay rights, but he’s one of these assholes that you can’t win the war with. So why should I put myself through such torture? Every time I see this person my blood boils and I just get angry all over again. How is this good for me? It’s not. I told John that he chooses to associate with this person, why I can’t fathom. I however will not, I can at least choose that much. Again graduating high school finally gave me the power to say “Why the hell would I want to be around someone like you” and be able to walk away. This is in fact a major reason as to why I will never work at said establishment period. I can not work with or for such a person.
Anyone from said establishment or the kids are always welcomed to come visit me of course. I just will not walk into that building anymore, because of the off chance I have to see said person. It’s not worth my sanity. Cearly I’m going to really now have to make the effort to get my ass out a lot more and make new friends! Fortunately I’ve already started on that 🙂
In case you haven’t figured, I also told John that he needs to find someone else to provide all the internet services I have, because I’m done with it. I won’t be treated this way and turn around and provide services for free to an establishment which this person is a major player in. I actually fired off an email 30 minutes ago officially informing many of my “resignation,” if one can resign from a free job lol. Yes sure I’m screwing some innocent people by doing this, including John, but again . . . that’s what happens when you associate with someone like that. One rotten egg does spoil the bunch, and the good eggs have to suffer if they won’t deal with it. I know I’m not the only person out there who has refused to associate with friends or family members because of an asshole in the midst 🙂 Hell, I know I’m not the only one who has walked out of said establishment 😛
Because I am a good person, no information from this post or blog as a whole (pertaining to said issue) can be used in any kind of story published on the net, print, radio, televised, etc.. without my permission. Should someone violate this, they (or said publisher, station, etc) agree to pay me the amount of $10 million dollars . . . . . Make my day please! 🙂